Nearly There

Friday, May 20, 2011


School is winding down.  I have almost made it through my first year.
If you had asked me back in September (or October… or November) if I thought I would have ever made it this far, I would have answered with an emphatic, “Oh, hell no.”  Ooo, child, I was a sad case.  Recently, my mom recalled a Sunday afternoon last fall in which she drove 40 minutes to my house to do my laundry because I was so miserable just thinking about the week that awaited me that I was practically paralyzed.  This post from September does a pretty good job of summing up my sentiments from last semester. 
Then, for whatever reason, something clicked after Christmas.  I figured a lot of things out.  I changed what wasn't working, and found ways to improve what was.  I forced myself to have a life outside of school, however small it might be.  I became a teacher who is firm, but kind.  I finally managed to use my classroom's bedamned projector system.
Yesterday, I was one of three teachers who showed up to school in the 7th grade hallway.  Substitutes had been called, but few showed up and my assistant principal was visibly frazzled.  I ended up redistributing the kids from the unsupervised classes into classrooms where a substitute or teacher was present.  I then taught five, hour-long classes with 36-40 students in my room.  I missed lunch because I met with a parent who is worried that her ex-boyfriend will kidnap her child.  I read 20 pages out loud to each of my last two classes of a book they love.  After school, I went to my students’ talent show where I screamed myself hoarse.  Before falling asleep, I typed up two quizzes for the following day and sent some emails about scheduling.  And yet, as I was laying in bed waiting the few moments it took for sleep to settle in, I felt empowered.  The day was chaotic, but I was the anchor.  I felt proud—of my students and myself.  It had been a good day.
Maybe I will burn out going so hard like this, but it’s miles better than being miserable.
Or worse, bored.
Love,
Teach

10 comments:

  1. You go, girl ;) Looking forward to seeing you at Amy's wedding stuff this summer!

    ReplyDelete
  2. So amazing!! I am an elementary education major in my junior year of college and your blog inspires me. [:

    ReplyDelete
  3. Way to go! You have some lucky kids.

    ReplyDelete
  4. As a graduate looking for a job in a big city, this post lets me know it is do able. Not easy, but do able.
    Thanks for sharing!

    ReplyDelete
  5. 900 is viewed as a perfect score while scores of 620 or more will qualify you for a customary home loan. Ought surprisingly score fall underneath 620, you should use more imaginative means for financing and hold on for higher loan costs. Cash Advance San-diego

    ReplyDelete

Your comment might take awhile to post, but should be up soon! Thanks for your feedback :) L, T

a95328aaaa